I need counseling

As I may have chronicled in this blog, I have the option of working out of any one of the two locations where my office has opened shop. The option is not really official, but more of an agreement with my bosses, who have been kind enough to permit this luxury.

But of late, I have been using the slightest of opportunities to work out of the office closer home. With every passing day, it is becoming increasingly difficult for me to commute to the office farthest from home. The commute is taking up 3-4 hours daily and I am simply not able to take it mentally and physically.

However, I am also feeling guilty that I am abusing an option that has been given to me. My bosses can simply tell me to limit the number of times I visit the office closer home or worse, simply revoke the privilege. Would I end up killing the goose that has been laying the golden egg?

What scares me more is the fact that at a sub-conscious level, I seem to be tuning myself away from the main location of work. Just look at this: Last Friday, my alarm woke me up at 5:30 as usual. But in what is a first for me, I simply reset the alarm to an hour later, with the plan to go to the office closer home and resumed my sleep. And yesterday (Monday), I again got up at 5:30 and even made it to the bus stop. But, I was 5 minutes late and had missed the bus. On previous occasions that I've missed the bus, I usually take my car and go to office. But this time, I took the car and simply went to the office closer home. And to top all of this, this morning (Tuesday), I again got up at 5:30. I've been feeling a little queasy due to a slight bout of acidity and I actually used that as an excuse and didn't even go to office today.

So basically, the very fact that I need to travel that far has made me tune myself out. But is it just the commute that is causing me to behave like this or is there something else deeper to look into? I need counseling.